lies? more like suppression of the oppression. pppp
we all live with lies. you either lie, or get lied at. to be honest, id rather get more of the latter. unless you are so used to sprouting nonsense all your life, it really feels like you're lying to yourself more than to the person you're lying to.
i feel even more remorse when i know that no one benefits from the lies. but we all do it. we cant run away from lying.
my ability to hide my feelings. pretence. i make you think that im on your side, but really. im on neither's. most of the time, i can't make decisions. but i dont say anything when i hate yours. i know excactly when i developed this. i even know the event which probably made me do all this. but its scary. because it leads to blind rage. roarrrr.
lets all run!
now i miss sheesha. nyeargusha.
i feel even more remorse when i know that no one benefits from the lies. but we all do it. we cant run away from lying.
my ability to hide my feelings. pretence. i make you think that im on your side, but really. im on neither's. most of the time, i can't make decisions. but i dont say anything when i hate yours. i know excactly when i developed this. i even know the event which probably made me do all this. but its scary. because it leads to blind rage. roarrrr.
lets all run!
now i miss sheesha. nyeargusha.
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22 October, 2005 11:13.I could get angry if you want. But I think no one will be there to see it. :/.
You are actually one of the mushiest people in my life (I think). Of course, disregarding all the porn.
peace-s.
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